Here In America

In the aftermath of the latest senseless loss of life in El Paso and Dayton, it is difficult to feel anything but anger. The endless commentary, the incessant coverage, the focus on what must be done and won’t be done, the preying on peoples’ fears, the lingering feeling that there is nothing routine, nothing innocent about a fucking trip to Walmart. Then there’s the denial from the Trump puppeteers who are so good at spinning the issue as a video game and mental health problem- and not their stonewalling and kowtowing to the gun lobby, along with the enabling attitudes and caustic commentary seeping from the President of the United States.

Other countries play video games more pervasively per capita than we do. Other countries deal with mental illness in their populations. Yet no one is in the same hemisphere when it comes to the frequency of these events as we endure them here. 

The former girlfriend of the Dayton shooter rather smugly and somewhat defensively said that he got the short end of the stick when it came to the attention he needed for his depression or mental illness, seeming to dismiss the glaring reality of his monstrous behavior as it stands.

I have no doubt that people slip through the cracks of our mental healthcare system, but there is no excuse for obtaining a weapon of war and killing an unsuspecting population with it. As cries for help go, this doesn’t help much.


Sometimes it’s a curse to be so connected, because it feels like verbal bombardment and sensory overload. We’re assaulted on a daily basis by myriad voices with differing motivations, and sometimes it becomes too much.

It seems to be the consensus among folks not associated with Fox News that Trump is a racist, but I don’t feel qualified to affix such a label. I know what I see and hear from him, and it’s mostly ugliness. It moves beyond simply “telling it like it is.” If it’s all in service of projecting a persona, of intentionally pissing people off, if it’s all part of a re-election strategy, then it means he has no problem acting and sounding like a person who shows and feels discrimination against other races. Maybe it’s just what it looks like- a person with an ego the size of Jupiter who feels no shame, who feels unassailable. Maybe the racism is so ingrained, there’s no way he can see it.

We slap labels on people at the drop of a hat anymore and call “foul!” Sometimes it’s really difficult to tell who has a legitimate gripe, because there seems to be such a pervasive desire to play the victim. And once the media get ahold of a story, it’s wall-to-wall coverage and a feeling that now it’s just piling on. And are plaintiffs motivated merely by wanting to teach someone a lesson, save someone from future harm, or is it more about the financial settlement? It’s no wonder lawyers get such a bad rap sometimes.

There’s no reason to accept the Donald Trump presidency as normal. We can’t care how Fox and friends spin things. There’s something seriously off about the whole lot of them. I feel no obligation whatsoever to respect him or anyone he appoints, or anyone who supports him. Though I’m sure some of them are good people. 

So There

I’m as guilty as anyone of never really listening to the opposing viewpoint, with regard to all the craziness going on in Washington. I guess I don’t feel like I’ll learn anything, because it will just be fear-mongering and defense of a president who doesn’t deserve defending. Not to mention an assault on my ears. It would be just another day of ass-holery, and I’ve had enough of those.

The people at Fox News and all the MAGA/KAG folks have nothing to say to me. But I have a plea to them: please step into the 21st century.

Donald Trump is just plain awful. Redeemable, but awful, at the present moment. And everyone around him are opportunists barking at the moon.

What Are People Telling You?

Do you really have a “bound conscience?” Or is it more your gut ruling your heart, just plain stubbornness and fear of difference? Are you hiding behind some shaky biblical interpretation? Because that’s a skinny tree without much foliage.

The bible is old. In some important ways, an outdated source. It can’t help us much when it comes to understanding human sexuality and gender identity.

If all it can do is offer up prohibitions against things the authors didn’t fully understand, or aren’t even mentioned, then how authoritative can it be?