Sorry…

This is the only place I can vent and rant without getting a side eye and other derisive looks, so on this first day of a new year, I just want to say that it sucks to be U.S. (no, Donald, you didn’t think of that first—I beat you by a year or more, and I’m sure there were many others, too.)

Anyway, how can anyone contemplate the year to come and think that, somehow, there’s reason for optimism? 2025 will almost inevitably be hotter and harsher than 2024, the war in Ukraine will likely look like child’s play in comparison to what looks to be in the process of unfolding.

And the steaming pile of dogshit on top of the moldy cake is the prospect of Year 1 of another four years with the Dolt-in-Chief at the helm.

Stepping Out

Daily writing prompt
What are your biggest challenges?

Being hopeful. I’ve been accused of being a glass-half-empty guy. In my defense, the only way I might avoid the cynicism and skepticism is by living in a cave the rest of my days. It’s difficult to check the newsfeeds and not be at least a little worried about our future as a species. And closer in, as a USA.

Keeping busy. While I don’t put a lot of stock in resolutions and “having a plan,” whatever that might mean, I do see the wisdom in finding ways to be useful and occasionally productive.

Being present for others, one in particular. Since retirement, and before, my tendency has been to be immersed in my own issues and challenges and perceptions. Despite what I said a couple days ago about the grandkids being the relationship I value the highest, it is and always has been my marriage and the state it is in that most influences the way I feel about things and the person I bring to the table.

Being less risk-averse. It won’t ever be anything outlandish, and I’ve played my whole life pretty close to the vest and conservatively. At this point in the proceedings, that probably won’t change much. But maybe there’s still time to let the freak flag fly, on occasion.

Doesn’t Take Much

Daily writing prompt
What makes you feel nostalgic?

Turning 70. I know it’s just a number, but this one has my attention, for some reason.

Besides that, there are any number of triggers– certain songs and Christmas carols, the smell of wood smoke in winter, the smell of a humidity-laden breeze out of the south, the smell of certain foods cooking, pictures on the digital frame or an old photo album I get distracted by when I’m cleaning out a box in the basement; most any conversation with a college friend.

Then there’s the concoction of smells of civilization– a mix of fried food, cigar and cigarette smoke, exhaust from a vehicle without a catalytic converter.

These things, and just about any Zoom call, lately, with my brothers. There’s a lot of reminiscing going on, at times.

Bits ‘n’ Pieces

Name-dropping annoys me. Same goes for the person who goes on and on about himself and can’t seem to stop. Ooh, he has an agent, and he just dropped his first album, and he trains as a powerlifter at a gym that has 3 floors and equipment imported from Italy.

Please let us leave. Sure, some of my discomfort might come from envy rearing its ugly head, but not much of it.

Saw Wicked recently. I never realized how political it is, a thinly disguised commentary on Trumpism that might well get it banned in the coming years.

Good show. It was great to hear that music again.

Sustenance

Daily writing prompt
What relationships have a positive impact on you?

Another prompt that’s given me pause. I’d say the relationship with my wife, on occasion; the relationship with our children, my siblings– especially my brothers, and now the one with our grandchildren.

I think it’s the one with the grandchildren that stands out, currently. The reasoning is partly selfish. I want them to have good memories of me, so I’m one who tries not to talk down to them, who gets on the floor and plays with the toy trucks and gives them horsey rides and runs around outside and in general acts like someone not my age. They bring out the kid in me, and that role feels quite natural. I’m both exhausted and exhilarated by their energy levels, taken with their authenticity, moved by how much of life they’re seeing and dealing with for the first time. And as much as I don’t look forward, sometimes, to keeping up with them and looking after them, I walk away from most encounters feeling like it has been time well spent, like I really couldn’t be anywhere else.

I have few non-family relationships I’d call friendships, except for one or two from college days fifty years ago. And those are still important to me.

Out There

Daily writing prompt
How have your political views changed over time?

They changed significantly and for good, during my years as a pastor.

For most of my voting life, I considered myself an Independent, voting for whoever appealed to me and seemed like the wise choice. But my time in the ministry provided a window on the human condition that I would not have gotten otherwise, and with this came a shift in perspective. I began paying closer attention to responsiveness to need, to the way we treat each other, to the way candidates speak and what they say– blatantly and between the lines– with regard to what they truly care about.

I’ve since begun to question religious faith in general, but certain values remain, and my ballot choices are heavily weighted in one direction anymore.

Money Talks, etc.

I guess I can see why people are deciding to live somewhere other than here. Four more years of Trump’s ham-handed idiocy? Say no more. I get it. Will we have a country left when the unserious manchild is done this time?

And what’s up with Elon Musk’s influence? What’s his role going to be, and why did Republicans listen to him, well, at all, but especially before the Trump administration even takes office?

Flaccid

I have to say it. The slogan, the catchphrase.

Make America Great Again.

Where does one begin, when it comes to unpacking this white bread, generic, contrived excuse for a rallying cry?

First of all, who gets to define greatness? What makes anything great?

Second of all, if making America great again involves going back in time, deporting people and taking away rights because the Bible says so, running the country like a private business, and abusing power– then what’s so great about that?

Make America Great Again? Might as well be, “Hooray for America! Aren’t We Something? Just Don’t Look Too Close.”