If Only…

Daily writing prompt
Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life.

I wish I had somehow absorbed a more robust understanding of things financial, in terms of disciplined saving and savvy investing.

Backing up even further, I wish I had a clearer sense for the path I wanted my life to take, from a vocational standpoint. I could have more intently focused my energies in college, actually gone to college with a clearer sense for what I needed to be doing and studying, maybe even finding something I was actually passionate about.

My life has been akin to Forrest Gump’s, without all the serendipity– unfocused, aimlessly floating like a feather.

Tradition

Daily writing prompt
How do you celebrate holidays?

For the warm weather ones– Memorial Day, July 4th, Labor Day– we might get together for a cookout. We used to seek out a fireworks display on July 4, but not so much anymore.

The cool/cold weather ones– Thankgiving and Christmas– have lately been times to gather with family who comes in from out of town. At Thanksgiving, we might take in a local road race, and a big meal is often involved. All the cousins get to see each other and catch up.

A Christmas tradition of late is to head up to our son’s and daughter-in-law’s place for some gift giving and opening– especially among the grandchildren– and then we have a nice breakfast. I might try to catch a presentation of A Christmas Story during its 24-hour marathon, and seasonal tunes are often playing in the background.

Yum

Daily writing prompt
What are your favorite types of foods?

On the one hand, anything that tastes good. On the other hand, things that I know are good for me. I eat certain foods mostly because I know they have nutritional value– beets and such. Others I eat because they simply satisfy a craving. Pasta with meat sauce, honey garlic chicken, oatmeal, eggs over easy, avocado toast, baked cod, rice pilaf, french fries, a grilled cheese and tomato sandwich, an occasional apple.

And popcorn.

Point Person

Daily writing prompt
Do you see yourself as a leader?

By no means, if by leader one means in the mold of Presidents and Generals or CEOs. If called upon, I can gather myself and focus on what needs to be done. I had to be a leader of sorts when I was pastoring congregations, but I was not what was known as the Herr Pastor type– the authoritarian for whom it was my way or the highway.

Lock Step

I foolishly thought it would be different in America. If we ever got to the point where law enforcement and the military were given orders by a rogue President to occupy American cities with a bogus reason for doing so, I had hoped they’d rebel and say No.

Disappointing to the max. Maddening as hell.

Just doing your jobs, though, right? Following orders? You’re awesome at following orders.

It turns out that the sheep are everywhere. Especially the ones wearing masks and carrying assault weapons.

Warning

Daily writing prompt
What personality trait in people raises a red flag with you?

When someone can’t stop talking, needs to get the last word, seems to knowingly or unknowingly engage in one-upmanship, followed closely by someone who turns every conversation or activity into blood sport, who’s ridiculously intense and competitive and talks frequently about being bored.

These will have me implementing a flight response.

Richness and Contentment

Daily writing prompt
Describe your ideal week.

Decent weather, an ambitious To Do list that gets accomplished, fun visits with the kids, some well-written blog posts that reflect progress in my ability to put pen to paper, so to speak. Discovering a couple or a few new recipes that we actually try.

My ideal week would go by at just the right speed– not too fast, not too slow. It would be a week in which I wasn’t as pre-occupied with and weighed down by the state of affairs in this country, where I wasn’t as cognizant of the usual spinning of wheels, feeling like I’m wasting my days stuck in neutral, twiddling my thumbs in idleness.

It would be a week in which certain things are made clear, like finding part-time work that I could actually see myself doing.

Kicking The Habit Is Hard

Daily writing prompt
If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?

When put on the spot, I’m finding it difficult to think of a word that fits the bill. I mutter the F-word with some regularity, mostly under my breath but occasionally out loud– when the neighbors next door decide to take a ride on their motorcycles and sit in the yard revving up the engines, making a ridiculous and inconsiderate amount of noise. I think this one would be tough to give up, though. As jarring as it may hit one’s ears, it’s one of the few truly versatile and cathartic exclamations.

In general, I guess it would be any word that ends up serving as a convenient place filler, used due to the lack of imagination or knowing other more interesting ones. Maybe “jeez,” or any that come close to taking the name of the Lord in vain.

That Other Shoe

What are we supposed to think when we see a military parade? I assume that, at least in part, it serves the purpose of intimidation, muscle-flexing, maybe assurance. The bailiwick of authoritarians, in any event.

To me, it’s just evidence that humanity continues to be a species with skewed priorities and debilitating distrust. It’s an indication that, rather than spending the trillions on tending to actual needs, investing in education and infrastructure and medicine and the arts and goodwill, we default to preparing for Armageddon, because the rest of the world appears to be doing the same thing—always ready to pounce, storing up armaments for that seemingly inevitable, awful day when suspicion and irrational hatred precipitate some final battle.

What a sad fucking way to live. We should be ashamed of ourselves.