A follower, by and large. My years in the ministry put me in a position of leader, in one sense, but I was never a Herr Pastor, as my colleagues would call a pastor who wanted control over everything. I took my worship leadership role seriously, and there were certain other situations in which I had to make decisions as the called pastor, but I would try for consensus and defer to expertise or experience whenever it seemed wise to do so.
Apart from the ministry, it has been a mixed bag of leading and following. I’ve often felt more like an apprentice than a master. Confidence is something I’ve often wished for in larger supply. And a fear of failure has always loomed too large.
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